I am often laughed at by others, Christians and non-Christians. What? In fact, most Christians just think that Christianity is just like idolatry, a religion of chicken soup for the soul. They don't believe in miracles at all, but they believe that I am crazy! And there are another kind of famous old Christians. They look down on people like me. They think their truth is God's truth. I also think they are great because they were born into a Christian family or at a very young age became christians and they are amazing! I am completely different. There is no one around me who has a foundation in the truth of the Bible, and no one around me has read the Bible once. Maybe they don’t believe in the Bible, thinking that believing in God is… sick! Jesus said: Only those who are sick need a doctor. If Christians are sick, then non-Christians must not be sick, then they must not need Jesus! (Matthew 9:12) But when Jesus heard that, he said unto them, They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick.

         I used to think that Christians were sick too. I know too many sick Christians that are too selfish and too arrogant. They often say beautiful words, but do nothing. It's disgusting! I don't want to know Christians at all! I used to be afraid to tell people that I was a Christian because I was afraid of being beaten. There are no Christians around me, and even if there are Christians. They are really bad, and the kind of people I want to tell them to get out of, how can they be any better? Later, when I became a Christian, I found out that Christianity has no "truth", and Christianity has been trampled by Christians to the point of disgrace and disgust! I often wonder: Will Jesus think: hack these Christians? Are Christians sick? Or are non-Christians sick? In fact, both Christians and non-Christians are sick! Because we are all sinners! But God's call isn't for me to help Christians, I'm to help people like me who don't have the chance to know God!

         My past is absolutely wonderful, but it's also quite unbearable, and I can't believe why I can go through so many ~ messy experiences! Can only say: This is the work of God! I have to believe in God!  Because He did know me, when I was in my mother's womb, and my life experience was so interesting, but God didn't waste my life in vain, He wanted to use my unrequited life to help more people in need, God never, not forgetting anyone who needs Him, but God wants to put the right person to help those who really need Him! God put me in environments that no one likes, but these people do need, I know these famous pastors, they are amazing! A bunch of Christians are too good! And people who are not good as me, and let me serve people who are not good as me!

          (2 Timothy 2:21) If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master's use, and prepared unto every good work.～I know that many are unwilling to serve lowly, ethnic groups without interests, because these people are particularly difficult! Their hearts are full of hatred and injustice, but these are the people who need God the most!  Famous pastors and old Christians like to deal with the upper class, and I am more suitable for the lower class! High class, rich, and powerful are not as me to climb high and famous pastors are fitting for those groups! So, those amazing pastors don't have to be jealous of me, because the work I do - you will never want to do it! You will only think that I am a praying mantis' arm and stop a car! Every time I hear a sermon, I really feel that these pastors are sick, so glass-hearted, how can they raise the congregations? I'm a little strong who can't be beaten. I'm not afraid of difficulties, but I'm afraid that my opponent is too weak! The small ghosts, I don't fight, it's too shameful to God! Individuals must be paid for their actions. If the pastors do not resist the true way, I will greatly appreciate the Lord! So I do not be afraid of devils, but people sick because they enjoy with devils.